Last year, rather than making new year resolutions I would doubtless break, I chose a word to live by. That word was WILD. I wanted to see more of my wild self, my wild soul, my true essence. It was time to break down the barriers, let go of the layers and discover the wilder, freer version of myself that I knew existed somewhere deep inside.
Choosing a word to live by was a powerful process, so much more positive than the age-old tradition of resolutions which are usually forgotten and broken by February anyway, leaving us feeling once again like we have failed in some way. This last year I would only have to ask “what would my wild self do now” and I would have the answer or direction I was seeking. I’m sure the whole process was helped by spending most of the year in the wilds of France. It was a year of letting go and peeling away the layers to see what lay beneath.
So did the wild woman show her face? Yes, she did! I felt my wildest truest self when I was walking barefoot, feeling the sun-warmed earth beneath my feet. When I was chopping wood, swinging the axe and using my strength to provide fuel for the fire. When I stood looking into the face of a young deer, the split-second before it barked a warning to the herd and sprang off. When I was standing amongst the trees under an ice-cold shower washing off the sweat and dirt of the day. When I was writing, taking photos, being creative.
Last year was a year of shedding skins and coming to gentle realisations. The realisation that less is more. Less material things, less commitments, less busyness, less interaction. More nature, more time, more thoughts, more writing, more laughing, more knowing myself.
Was I scared when I set out on this journey of what I might find? Hell, yes! But I have realised that being scared is usually the start of something good, great even. I’ve learned more about myself in these past twelve months than I have in years of distracting myself away from who I truly am.
I have learned that being wild is about letting go of who we think we are and embracing who we truly are. It’s about trusting ourselves and not caring what anyone else thinks about us or what we are doing. Refusing to give airtime to the naysayers and harbingers of doom. They’re not my people. Why should I care what they say?
It is about the importance of experience over material possessions.
It’s about digging deep and gently visiting the dark places in our minds with compassion and forgiveness. This was maybe the hardest thing of all this year, but in shedding light on the darkness I have started to see myself differently. I have stopped judging myself and have started accepting myself.
It’s about learning to see the passing years not as wasted dreams or time that has escaped, but as years of experience and a growing wisdom. Learning to settle in our skin.
It is about bringing our soul, our personality and our true essence into our work and the way we live our lives. Standing in our power and daring to live the life we want to live, based on our own values and philosophy.
It’s about breaking the rules, breaking free and allowing ourselves to just be ♥